merry christmas you filthy animal

This Christmas was different from a lot of Christmas's I have had in the past few years. This year I celebrated the Holidays with someone very special to me.. We started new traditions that we hope to be able to do in the years to come. He spent this Christmas holiday with my family and it was an absolute treat.

Despite all the new memories, and new traditions the traditions of how Christmas used to be wished there way into my mind. Christmas always was my brothers favorite holiday so with that there came a lot of things we would do to celebrate. For the past three Christmas's we have tried to find a balance between keeping the memories we all held dear, but were also too painful to enjoy and starting new traditions even though we didn't like the idea of having traditions without my brother.. but we some how one Christmas at a time are finding ways to be better, and finding ways to enjoy this time of year again with happy thoughts instead of heart wrenching pain that used to come from it.

I am grateful for this time of year because I do feel especially close to my brother, and I know that because of the reason we celebrate Christmas is the reason that I know I will get to celebrate with my brother again. I am grateful for my family, and friends for there constant love and support the offer me, and for the time I get to spend with them during this time..and this year I am especially grateful for Julian.. He really has helped me to make Christmas something I can enjoy again.

So from my home to yours Merry Christmas... Enjoy our Christmas Carpool Karaoke..

All the Love