Tell me the story again.
The one where I'm strong, and brave. The one where you told me all the wonderful things you saw in me. Tell the one about how much you love me, and how much I make you proud. Tell me how I'm better than what I give myself credit for, and how you always knew I could do it. Tell me I'll make it through, and that it is all going to be okay. Tell me that you wish for me all the things you couldn't be, and make me see myself through your eyes.
I wish you were still here to tell me all these things. The things that made me strong inside, the things that made me believe. I wish I could hold you tight and feel your heartbeat strong. I wish I could still hear your laugh every time that I come home. I wish that you were still here to make me believe in myself again. You saw me in ways I never could, and you always made me strong.
I used to wish for a lot of things; like wealth and love and fame. But now if I only had one more wish for my entire life I know what that wish would be. I'd wish that I could hear your voice, and laugh with you one more day. To hear you say you love me more than words could ever say. Because life is just not what I want when you aren't here with me. You were my one constant in a world that seemed so big. You were always by my side when people always left. It feels like it's been forever since I last saw you. Since I watched your eyes light up, and watched you dance around.
I keep reading the words you wrote to me. Words of love, regret, and hope. I wish that I could hear you say them just one more time. I'm trying so hard to be the person you saw in your eyes. I want so badly to be that person fearless, strong, and faithful. I just don't want to disappoint you as you're watching over me. I miss you so much it hurts on days that life just won't simply stop. I think it would be nice to just have one more talk with you. I love you with every atom inside me that misses you just as much. I've been thinking about you daily lately in how life is up there.. sometimes I think I'd like it better. A life with you, and others. But I know that I am here for both of us now. To live, and love, and try. Most of all I am here to be the person you always told me I could always be. Stick with me as I try and fail, because we both know I like to fall.. but be right there to help me up and remind me of who I am.
